Lonely Journey

No one can go where I’m going.
At least that’s what they say.
The problem is what I've done
Breaks a promise made each day.

Though I'm seemingly falling down.
At least that's what they think.
The problem is I’m held down
by lies I want to believe.

I won’t get close to anyone.
No matter how they plead.
The problem is there’s no one
Far enough from what I flee.

No one will go where I’m going.
At least not those who care.
It’s a path and an experience
That leaves you sad and bare.

Behind It All

There was no certain moment
There was no certain time

I knew that I was going
To somewhere lost in lies

When nothing fit together
Because it's all facade

I figured there was nothing
found in the "plans of God"

And so I walk this unknown path
With a mask of self restraint

Taking all the problems
Continue with no complaint

I was searching for a reason
A reason to believe

That out there, there is someone
That in our pain bereaves.

But now my mind has changed
When once I was so sure

Traveling on a brand new road
No longer feel impure

When it all just fit together
Even though there was no place

I figured there was nothing
I needed to embrace

While Here I Lie

In my mind's eye
Step back from myself;
Invisible walls
That block every try.
While here I lie,
I see all 'round
So much more
than what I've found.
Quietly I'm watching
Things I cannot do.
Silently wishing
dreams I never knew.
While here I lie,
nothing left to give
While here I die,
no reason left to live

It’s Funny How Things Change

When one of your friends leaves.
The loss your heart bereaves.
Things that were once enjoyed,
No longer fill the void.
When all is said and done.
There’s nothing that’s as fun.
The games and tricks you played,
You wish they could have stayed.
Heart and hands are heavy.
Lead legs will not carry.
It’s like you’re out of breath.
It’s kind of like a death.
So many memories,
Blown away in the breeze.
Everyone is smiling.
While you sit there frowning
When someone you love leaves,
It’s funny how things change.

Secrets

Many secrets lie behind
smiles that seem so kind.
How long will this go on?
You smile because you’ve won.

Dying from deep wounds
I’m fallen, on the ground.
Stabbed as with a knife.
Such pain has been my strife.

Shut secrets in your eyes.
Did you think I was blind?
Don’t hide anymore,
behind those stained glass doors.

Tears and hate blur my view.
Lost everything to you.
Watch and laugh at my pleas.
I am down, on my knees.

Sharp words divide our ties,
cutting me with your lies.
It’s useless to be strong,
once innocence is gone.

Wondering why...

I’m living a lie,
But dying for truth,
And wondering why,
There’s no kind of proof.
I’m hoping for help,
From prison and pain.
I’m searching for self,
Yet running away.
I'm reading a book
I don't understand,
And wondering why
Not everyone can.
I’m living my life,
But dying to dream,
And wondering why
There’s something missing.

Finding Love

Searching for dreams hard to reach,
Reaching for you as I seek.
When we met, I wasn’t there.
I didn’t see how much you cared.

Told myself you were too good.
Naive boy misunderstood.
Love can be for anyone.
Leave the shelter, feel the sun.

Blind to how I might have been,
One you chose from all the men.
So unsure of what I’d feel.
I’m not sure if this was real.

As I quickly turned away,
Lost my chance to stop and say,
you had hit my hidden heart,
when you threw that cupid dart.

Now my tears blend with rain,
With no one left to see my pain.
So I pray we meet once more
and to find a love in-store.

Not What It Seems

I have touched a few lives,
Yet untouched I remain.
Though you see a hero,
It’s fake, I only feign.
My life’s so full of lies.

Though I lead I am lost
Don’t be fooled by this face
Smiles and laughs for show
they leave without a trace.
Don’t care how much they cost.

Am I on the Lord’s side?
I’ve nowhere else to turn.
I’ve nowhere else to go.
So I'm left to burn,
And fearing that I might die.

I was stuck doing good,
Instead of what was right.
I won, and yet I lose.
Standing in the spotlight,
and acting as I should.

Can I change what is past?
An answer that I fear.
Bright lights can only show,
past scars and sullen years
dark shadows that they cast.

In the end all will see
things are not what they ought to be.
Look around, it’s not what it seems.
Wake from these frightful dreams.

War You Wage

You’re on the stage, a war you wage!
You do your best, and do not rest
They come to watch and see you botch
the play’s first song. They say your wrong,
You smile and say, “thanks anyway.”
Yet your heart bleeds from their harsh creed.
A war you wage, get off the stage!
Another try to show them why,
you will succeed, although you bleed.
It’s inner fire, you do not tire.
You sing sans fear, Your song brings tears.
It takes your all, finish and fall.
While they listen, their eyes glisten
No longer wrong, is your life’s song.
Though you may bleed, that’s what they need
to see your soul, your push, your pull
Stay on the stage, this war you wage!